“Spirituality means waking up. Most people, even though they don’t know it, are asleep. They’re born asleep, they live asleep, they marry in their sleep, they breed children in their sleep, they die in their sleep without ever waking up. They never understand the loveliness and the beauty of this thing that we call human existence.”—Anthony de Mello (via elige)
Singapore day 1: hawker center, china town and first impressions
Im writing this at around 5am singapore time because my internal clock is just so amazingly messed up right now. Its dark outside but its suuupeerr nice weather. Not to mentions the birds are already awake and they are so beautiful. They make it sound like i live in the amazon.
The first place I went to adventure at was the “hawker center”. Hawker center used to mean a place where the merchants would yell out and try and sell stuff to you, but nowadays i guess they don’t do that in singapore. So hawker center nows are (from what i understand) a place where the lower class and come and eat and buy random things.
The hawker center is the NON TOURIST zone. Its full of working class people just grabbing a bit to eat and it is the coolest thing i have seen in singapore yet. So much culture, so many different kinds of foods and, get this, i can get a full meal cooked right in front of me for 2.50$!!
Besides being a spot for the locals the hawker center is also gianormous! There is a dentist, a dermatologist, a 7-11 (which i could only recognize from the green and red stripes), and a bunch of little dinky shops with random things. And as far as little restraunts go, there are no less than **20**!!!.
20 places to eat with food under 3.50 everytime…
sign me up
As you may or may not know, its almost chinese new years. That means that china town was fucking INSANE. I HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE IN ONE PLACE. IT ISN’T RIGHT!!
Seriously its like ULTRA metropolitian here. Streets where the road is packed with cars, and the sidewalks are absolutely packed with people. The shops are packed with people looking at shit. The subways are packed so you to like rush in behind a fucking tidal wave of people into the subway and hope the door doesnt close on you. Meanwhile, because they are all urban people nobody looks at you, nobody communicates with you, i mean its just crazy. There is like no human communication.
I dont mean to be racist or anything, but the asian stereotype of hardworking is as far as i can tell yet, extremely true. I have never seen people work like this. I dunno i could tell a million stories just from day one of like 18 year old kids working harder than i ever have in my life (American stereotype? I thiiiink so).
Coolest part of china town
Hands down, with no comparison, clear victor of coolest place in china town was the huge Buddhist monastary / museum.
This building was amazing. It has FOUR levels with an elevator included. On the bottom level looks similar to like a big roman catholic church, with people praying to a big golden scene of buddha. On the other floors though there is a museum, a book store a MEDITATION ROOM (win) and on the roof… a garden!
ill do a whole psychoanallysis type blogg on what i think about the buddhist monastary. for now, i think its badass.
Its about 6:00 in the morning now here. I got my first day of class so im gonna take my last little bit of extra time to do some meditation. hope you guys enjoyed my first blog.
If there is one thing i know about myself, its that im sort of an airhead. I’m like a walking disaster. Everywhere i go shit in my life is exploding, and this last episode at the airport today is a perfect example of that. I seriously just dont care. And i dont know if i should or like what im doing wrong or if other people are doing wrong for consantly juding me for not taking care of my stuff. Sometimes i just really really wish i would lose all of my physical possesions and be homeless. Because honestly i really dont feel like i know myself. I dont appreciate all this stuff i have. These new jeans, new shirt and expensive suite jacket. i just dont get it. Its all just there to make other people happy. It has nothing to do with me. I could give a fuck about clothes - seriously.
I wish there was like a mystical person who i could consolt about this stuff. And this whole dramatic shit hole that happened today, just even more reminds me how bad i need to make sure i get a job in life that lets me be an airhead. I need to find people that are stupid enough to pay me to just think about shit and talk with people.
The reprecussions of acting like this are pretty serious. I mean i really never get stressed out. Almost never does anything get to me. I just relax. It rolls over my shoulders and im happy again, or at the very least wandering around in my thoughts again. But one thing which really drags me down is the thought of how my parents and family get SO mad at me when stuff like this happens. I call my dad and he is just flailing balls and i just dont get it. Like, am i missing something? Should i be way stressed out too? I feel like its a pretty cool quality in myself to just relax and remain focused when shit hits the fan.
I hope i see some light on this subject in the next few years of my life.
I would like to write a brief outline of an idea i have been tossing around in my brain the last few days. Within this quick blog i want do discuss the theory that Americans, and post modern society as a whole, seem to zealously believe that only actions or objects with specific purpose are worth doing or achieving or owning ect.
Quick example to outline this idea: you tell someone you are going to college, they will almost indefinitely proclaim that you are doing a good thing, that college is good. Now college is good why? College is good because it gets you a better job, it accelerates your potential mobility into a higher social class ect ect. It pretty much has an infinite number of practical uses. Now do not get me wrong i don’t believe college is bad. But let me elaborate further. If you tell someone i took 500 dollars out of the bank and proceeded to buy a gratuitous amount of alcohol and then subsequently got smashed with all of my friends, this would likely be frowned upon. This is a bit of an extreme example. But we as human beings ALL have hobbies / things we like that are not useful in anyway at all but make our lives much better.
If we were all to work entirely off of effectiveness we would become machines! Human beings are inefficient and make really really stupid decisions. We enjoy things that don’t logically make sense. For example, emotional attachment and love is, from a utilitarian perspective, extremely wasteful. Try and stay with me here. The argument still is that being efficient is no better or worse than being inefficient and that we should be far less judgmental of ***OURSELVES*** for being being “dumb” and making decisions that dont make sense in terms of economic / social / humanitarian utility.
So back to my argument on love. The thesis is love is anything but efficient. It almost never makes our bank accounts larger (at least not for men anyways), it almost (i stress almost) always ends up in us getting emotionally hurt or us hurting someone else and so on and so forth. Do you see where this is going?
However i can see an arguement against this theory. Some extreme utilitarians might argue like so; “well Mr Silverberg, your actually quite right, and so i would have to say that means in order for us to live an ideal life we must exonerate our seeming inherent human condition to love one another in order to be fully practical”. My response to this would be “bullshit i do”.
Maybe you might agree with me but, life is not worth living if we must sacrifice what makes us happy, purposeful and energetic. If we must live life without things that are irrational then I would rather not live at all!
In conclusion it seems to me that some of the most important things to us as human beings are irrational. Thus we must embrace the compass within us which guides us to something which your analytical sense might object to. However I am also not saying we should go about being completely devoid of ethical or economic judgments. But do not judge yourself for enjoying a beer on a saturday afternoon when the back of your mind is telling you to study.
Our institutions and society have become the driving force behind our entire mental condition. We live our lives on a very specific route; birth, grade school , college , work, retire, die. I do believe it is very dangerous to let ourselves feel guilty for not wanting to adhere to the pressures of our ancestors. They might have been right in their time, but soon our generation will be responsible for this institutions which run the world and I think one of the most pressing questions of the last couple hundreed years is, do we even want this institutions? Are they even worth keeping around?
Its the 1st of january! happy new year everybody. For me this is going to be a really big change. Obviously im going to singapore and well ontop of that there are so many smaller specific little divisions and seperatiosn and additions happening to my life. Im saying goodbye to my whole second family of my friends, well actually, i already did that today.
i wish i didnt have to worry about you. i mean, i guess i really dont worry about you. im just going to sit here and let my fingers talk for me because apparently as of lately, my brain has been completely incapable of expressing how i actually feel. Infact, im beginning to believe the brain is permanently incapable of doing that. So for now i need spotinaity to retain my humanity.
What i would really like right now is just to be normal. to just really care about clothes and cars and girls and marriage and tv shows and celebrities. But those just don’t satisfy me. They dont even come close. In fact, i can remember being a kid in high school and thinking to my self “god i wish i could not care about cars and clothes and ect” and now, here i am, 3 years later, sitting where i wanted to be, entirely confused.
im not trying to complain or anything but i mean i have been feeling pretty lonely in the companion department these last few months. i mean seriously, im not trying to sound emo, im just trying to like figure out my life right now.
girls are great and everything you know romance and all that. ultimately though, im gonna tangent here really quick, i was watching this ted video where the professor is like very often we judge a situation and we deciede we would be happier if we had a particular object or person in our life, but often this is not true. and like i feel that really applies like, yeah id like to imagine that a girl in my life who is attatched to me and all that would make me a lot happier, but it hasnt yet so, for what reason would i blieve it to in the future.
Is it possible i would be much happier if i just lived my life free of that constant want in the back of my head? is that shit even fucking possible?
because speaking of impossible im seriously jaded by “intellectuals” right now. Im NOT a genius. im a fucking regular guy from oak harbor and i SWEAR every philosophy book i have pickd up in the last 6th months has been CRAP. like not just like a bad book but the guy writing it is just like… here is my idea, an idea that only needs you know, 20 minutes max, to get the poitn across. But im gonna write a 300 page book, complete with WAY to many examples, and WAY too many 17 syllable words. These guys…i seriously just want to hit them. I think its time i made the switch to fiction. or just give up reading entirely.
actually, scratch that, im reading a bertrand russell book right now called “on idleness” and its awesome. It sort of reminds me of erich Fromm. These books where the author adresses society as a whole, as well as like the entirety of the human condition seem to appeal to me way way way more than these very precise and scientific oxford press published piles of garbage they call academic literature.
i was sort of getting a little bit scared like, if philosophy lets me down, where do i turn for knowledge next? but then i rememberd that russell book. But that thought leads me down this passage that makes me think, maybe i need to stop turning to places for knowledge? I dont even know what that means really. Its extremely vague and sort of useless i know but, philosophy is cool and all but, its soo wiffy waffy. I want to be happy. i want to be wise. i want to be prolific. a leader. someone people look at and they know that i love them from the very core of my soul. i want to be patienct. i dont know really i just want mastery over life. love happyness all that good stuff. And so far, philosophy and mental mastery seem like the asnwer to that question.
so there it is folks my new years resolution. its the same new years resolution ive had for the last two years, and its going to be the same new years resolution i have for the next thirty to fifty something years i live.
here is a brief shitty outline of what they might look like
- always remember that love is the absolute unconditional form of value. it is the most important thing in life and it is life in every second of every moment.
(that last one is really the big one)
(but i just want to add)
- to go to singapore with an open heart and open mind. Find something great there for myself. Grow spiritually, physically, intellectually.
Well i have learned in the last week that if i write this thinking that anybody is going to read it, or to intend it for anybody but myself, i completely smother any depth that i might produce. So here we go, for nobody but myself.
I just got done have christmas with my moms boyfriends family. I didnt know a single person there but my mom. It was interesting, but for the most part i was just completely bored. Maybe a bit alienated. Maybe a bit entertained. They are an upper middle class white family. Pretty standered family. They all got nice presents for the children. Jackets and hats and clothes from urban out fitters. Games and books and things for the adults.
What was really important about the whole thing was that i knew im pretty much getting nothing for xmas. There is nothing to look forward to for my christmas really. My family is broke now. My former step father lost all of my families money (or my moms really) about two years ago. Ever since then my mom has had to go over seas to 1. escape money that my step dad defaulted on so the banks tried to sieze her assets (like our house) and 2. to pay bills and 3. to help support me.
i got some books. but that means nothing to me. I could steal a book just as easy. or i could work two or three hours to do it. But really my mom has always showed her love by providing for us, and now, she can’t do that. My mom is for the most part a very emotionless person so i dont get the pleasure of having deep moments with her really. Not that we dont have a deep relationship were just not a emotional family.
So its a particularly cold holidays in the metaphorical sense.
Meanwhile im preparing to leave the country. Leaving my friends my traditions my family my everything. But then again, i have nothing here in washington. And i mean that really pretty literally (that i have nothing).
while in oak harbor, and since my families financial collapse i have changed astronomically. i dont give a fuck about money, trends, clothes, anything really. I care about people. And ill tell you what, caring about people is mother fucking hard.
.. *damn i think im a bit emo after this whole christmas extravangaza*…
so pretty much look at this people here in America, who arn’t going anywhere in the immediate future.
Please dont forget that america is a small small small small piece of the world. Our conceptions about having kids, going to college, being a success, making it in our world are all thigns we only think are true. they arn’t anywhere near being universal. remember what we all really want. What is really true. What all human beings whether in america, japan, nigeria or brazil want. Acceptance, peace, truth, love. these things transcend and include everythign we stress about in our day to day lives.
i guess i just really want people to be honest with themselves right now. Because lately while i have been spending a lot of time with people i havn’t met before i wish i could resonate with them but i have a lot of trouble. when people arn’t themselves, when they are living a lie they make it really really depressing for everyone is trying to be honest. The honest have nobody to connect with and are alienated by all the asleep and blind.
i guess i just gotta continue on my journey with or without companionship.
peace and love to everyone in the world we live in
hope you guys enjoy this track
thanks for reading this emotional garbage you guys are the best
“If we are crazy, then it is because we refuse to be crazy in the same way that the world has gone crazy. Whats crazy is that the US, less than 6 percent of the world’s population, consumes nearly half of the world’s resources, and that the average American consumes as much as 520 Ethiopians do, while obesity is declared a “national health crisis.”
Someday, war and poverty will be called crazy, and we will wonder how the world allowed such things to exist. Some of us have just caught a glimpse of the promised land, and it is so dazzling that our eyes are forever fixed on it, never to look back at the ways of that old empire again.
We are waking up. What seemed impossible is becoming normal.”—Shane Clairborne (via herefordianyouth)
Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, yes. But does that make everyone right? No. Why do we spend the vast majority of our lives working even though we hate it? I believe there are answers to these questions, not just opinions.
I wrote this as a first draft. I did not edit it and i dont intend to. This is just a profession of my thoughts and feelings which i hold very special and i would like to share. If you came here to critique grammer and structure, well, your gonna find a goldmine. Enjoy :]
I think it is extremely important for myself to try and provide something to this society intellectually. I feel as though there could be no higher honor than to try and help my fellow human beings. However to me, this doesnt mean that i or anybody else who feels inclined to help others should have to play to the intellectual beliefs and systems which other people believe. In fact, i believe disagreeing with the majorities beliefs, their ideas, trends, even the things that they hold holy, like god, nationhood and profession is the most benefecial to society. It is often painful yes, but it is common knowledge that you must experience the lows to learn the highs.
So today I wish to write on the topic of currency and ownership. It seems that recently people have forgotten the knowledge that has been written over and over and over since antiquity. That is, that money is worthless, and that possesion and ownership over objects is false and arguebly even poisioness. To understand this is to lift a great burdon from yourself. To understand these principles is to truely practice the saying of “i dont care what others think”.
If there were no minds in the world, gold would be just gold. To say gold is worth anything, or to say that it is more important than anything else that is a physical object is false. You probably already understand this; that money only means anything because we deciede it does. But do the priorities of our society and nation act as if they knew this? Of course not. More importantly this same principle of relative worth also applies to ownership. It is as simple as this, you do not own anything. Anything that you claim is yours is not yours. It “belongs” to nobody. “claiming” something implies it is you. Its a insane symptom of our society. I hate to inform you of this but, it is the truth. However i believe there is a potential for a wonderful amount of growth if we are to understand the misconceptions of ownership’s coorelation to our backwards agenda of greed. Although we understand money is worthless, we still stress ourselves over it, beat ourselves up when we don’t have enough or havn’t saved sufficiently. Why is this? its because we need money in order to feed this concept of ownership. We need money to own things. We work for the vast majority of our lives so that we may own things that we think are important. But of course, it is common knowledge that these things are not actually important. This is why most poeple are intellectually hopeless, why so many families divorce, why there is a explosion in mental illnesses like bipolar, schizophrenia and most of all depression. Because we must lie to ourselves on a daily basis that things like our car, our watch, our designer clothes are important, when of course, this is not true. They have no intrinsic value. They are valueable only in their sense of utility, but in this modern age of consumerism, utility and fuctionality are dead concepts.
The next strides in man is to understand this, to understand the ugly truth that we have all invested ourselves in things that don’t actually matter at all. That we spend our livs practicing rituals to sustain a lifestyle which only depresses us. Practicing a ritual which forces us to corner ourselves in intellectual identities such as sucsessful or sexy that make us feel worthwhile. And we hide in our alchohal, pot smoke and friends so that we may escape our lonelyness that, if left be, would remind us that our modern lives are not condusive to our real human needs; compassion and love. The message that has been written and spoken from the sages and scholars through every age have been the same; love thy neighbor, treat others as you wish to be treated, know thyself. Notice none of them include, mercades, professional sucsess, college graduate, good highschool gpa. Rather they all conclude love is the ultimate pursuit of life.
”The innate, natural and ancient religion that is Islam is the religion of love”.
"Even offering three hundred bowls of food three times a day does not match the spiritual merit gained in one moment of love."
"God is love"
"love your neighbor as yourself…the essence of the Torah"
I thought about going and sourcing some of the most prominent scholars and sages through history but that is a lot more work than I am willing to put into this haha. So hopefully you get the idea. That the lives we live, have nothing to do with what we actually want. If you find yourself depressed, lonely, alienated; that is okay. What else would you expect from these crazy institutions we have constructed and practically worship? “Do not try and bend the spoon. That’s impossible. Instead… only try to realize the truth. Then you’ll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself”. Dont try and find find happiness in material sucsess, neither should you rebel and rage against it. Instead, understand the truth of the situation, the emotional toll of material sucsess and the misconstrued values. Then, naturally, effortessly, you will change. It is your nature to prgoress, to learn, to love. Realizing the truth, without effort, allows you to embrace your nature without you ever having to do a thing. Then maybe you will know love, and then maybe you will sleep with the tv off in a state of security and serenity, with knowledge of love, which is a thousand times more rewarding than any material sucsess.
updated daily life and how it is a response to Fromm, Edmound Wilson, Michelette and literature as a whole
"What characterizes medieval in contrast to modern society is its lack of individual freedom…But altogether a person was not free in the modern sense, neither was he alone and isolated. In having a distinct, unchangeable, and unquestionable place in the social world from the moment of birth, man was rooted in a structuralized whole, and thus life had a meaning which left no place, and no need for doubt…There was comparatively little competition. One was born into a certain economic position which guaranteed a livelihood determined by tradition, just as it carried economic obligations to those higher in the social hierarchy."
The past eight months have been getting, in terms of my life, increasingly more confusing. I have spent them cutting myself off from stimulation, especially in terms of video games and T.V, and replacing it with meditation, daily life maintinance and tons of reading. I have been reading 3+ books at a time pretty consistant rate, and insofar, it is hard to tell if it is rewarding (and if so, in what way?). Peering into my past shows me a time where, arguably, i was far happier than i am now. But unfortunately the dichotemy of emotion isnt that black and white - that so called happiness, which seems to warrent a once again disctracted life style, could be complacentcy. I find the arguement that i was more complacent a few years ago then now, and attributing manufactered happiness to explain it, seems a far better arguement than “my life has in some way deteriorated”.
In fact, if anything, my life has gotten so much better i can hardly realize. I have good friends, I live in a three story condo, my grades are fantastic and i believe i am on the path of cultivating one of my great human talents; the art of expression. I feel incredibly more human, and despite feeling anxious quite frequently, i can’t help but to think that i am confronting a long hidden fear or problem. Peering into some of the greatest minds in history has reawakened my capacity to romanticize, and has provided me a path to walk along as I struggle to extract and decipher the many ideas and emotions locked away in my subconscious.
I reccommend “to the Finland station”, by Wilson, to everyone who reads this blogg. It’s an absolutely beautiful mix of philosophy, politics and history - while still being not only readable, but riveting!
Wilson’s remarkable talent for fleshing out the personalities and ideas of Michellette, Voltaire, Marx and many other great minds, has inherently inspired me due to the sheer appeal of their character. They are brilliant critical thinkers who possess an ability to reason objectively and rationally all the while being incredibly in touch with their inner emotion and, although only some, are unpredictably humble!
I admire these qualities. Intellectualism lends itself to a character which practically embodies the philosophical values I idealize. “Maybe, it will be academia which will provide me with my sense of identity” runs through my mind frequently. I sit here writing this today in order to provide a sort of landmark for my journey through life, something where when i reflect it will conjure a summary from the immediate moment i wrote it- like a portal through time; avaliable whenever I need to acquire some bearing on life.
My literary skills are developing quickly, along with my reading comprehension. My ability to reason seems to now reach beyond myself as an individual. I feel as though “a new form of self awareness may be developing due to my rigorous study and contemplation”. Peers at this time are interesting and fun, but not thought provoking or even remotely profound.
I am writing this for the sake of preserving this thought, so if your looking to read something clear, well thought out and polished, you shouldnt read this. Saying that, i’m going to do my best to represent my thoughts in a easy to convey manner.
Philosophical questions which could provide some insight
Hypothetically, lets say we we could visit an Islamic tribe somewhere in Iran. Lets say that we visited this tribe and that we had the opportunity to speak to one member of the tribe. The tribe is, and really should be for the situation, an enclave from the modern world. They are largely unaware of modern technology, hold largely agricultural, ritualistic and dogmatic principles and thus Islam is practically their way of life. wow i sound like a bigot in that sentence.
What if we could prove to one member of the tribe that Islam, wasn’t real. Through an incredibly irrefutable argument using common rationality, applicable to all human beings, such as mathematics, we were able to debunk Islam as a whole. Why would this tribe member, we’ll call her Lucy for now, ever agree with the irrefutable evidence and question her faith in islam?
Holding Islamic principles would be beneficial to lucy on pretty much every field. Matter of fact, not being islamic, is practically inherently dangerous due to her scenario ( she lives within the confines of a nomadic society which, maybe due to my ignorance but more probably not, could potentially threaten her life if she questioned the local religion). Any practical modern philosophy would explain the underpinnings of human rationality as a method of survival, ie behaviorism, modern psychology, ect, but this question that i am posing, would challenge that.
why do people seek to learn the truth, despite the fact that it will hurt them?
Rationality < truth
survival < truth
There doesn’t seem to be a good answer to this. At the same time, it sheds light on a wonderfully deep topic, the survival of thoughts. Dogma, religion and philosophy all serve to provide a basis for each persons reality. Practically everyone has a philosophy which governs their life. If their philosophy is threatened, their very existence is threatened and thus they are likely to defend themselves emotionally and irrationally in order to preserve themselves from mental instability, a fear for just about anyone. This self preservation we shall call “defense mode”.
The peculiar thing about when someone enacts their defense mode is that it is only when threatened that it surfaces. If a college doctorate were to be approached by a mentally handicapped person, and asked if he had accepted Christ, he would probably smile, and play along, regardless of whether or not he had accepted christ. On the other hand, if a fellow colleague, or nobel peace laureate posed this question, our hypothetical college doctorate graduate, would likely feel threatened. He is more likely to engage in irrational debate to defend himself and will probably not change his philosophy. However, if approached by a stranger, or someone he looked up to, defensive mode is less likely to emerge because he is not threatened. Let us discuss why this is the case. The doctor who has been going in and out of defense mode will now be larry for the rest of this discussion.
1) the stranger
A) The stranger, is categorically exempt from judgements by larry.
B) the stranger is an exception to larry’s philosophy
C) Because Larry has no philosophy concerning the stranger, his intellectual security is not threatened by Larry’s propositions and thus will be more likely to adopt a philosophy from the stranger.
From this we can learn a certain persons philosophy, synonymous in application with their mental reality, seeks to preserve itself. Similar to any biological organism or virus, it seeks to survive. Larry is only insecure when faced with situations that question his established philosophy. When larry is question in realms not yet established, demonstrated by our stranger situation, he is more open, due to, presumably, a lack of preconceptions.
Thus i propose our preconceptions are separated from our will. Our philosophy is not a product of our will, but our will is a product of our philosophy. People dont want to learn when it conflicts with their mental reality, even if it serves to better them. This situation and its consequences, are entirely irrational.
Despite something benefiting us we turn it down, entirely unwittingly. our will always serves to enforce and benefit the philosophy by which we govern our lives. Our interests in every part of our life are a reflection of our philosophical values. Lets take this to some real world application to see if its true.
If a human being were to take an extremely minimal amount of time philosophizing, in which they would establish only a thin basis to act from, they would probably be devoid of moral obligations. The nfl, is a perfect example. I am going to continue to use the analogy of a organism to explain the nature of our living mentality. nfl is a perfect example for a number of reasons. “no news is good news”, and this is exactly the agenda of biological life. Animals, humans, cells; only adapt when they are forced with a situation that threatens their stability. This principle, is clearly evident in the living mentality of a NFL player. at a young age they discover something which provides for their physical needs, sports. It brings them attention, money, pride, success and over all societal recognition. They then should have no need to philosophize because the situation they in are ideal, if my biological approach to mentality is correct. it turns out that, as we all know about the majority of athletes, they arn’t all that smart. thus the puzzle pieces fit together perfectly..
It seems this mentality of complacency, that exists only until interrupted, manifests itself into all aspects of our society. It would explain the phenomenon of news always being negative. It would explain why bipartisanship has emerged in us politics, it would explain the lack of intellectuality in America, it seems to explain many of the psychological problems we have here in america, but what i havnt figured out yet is what i can conclude from it.
Maybe someone else can come up with some clever conclusion but for the meantime, it seems to be a relatively accurate method for explaining the transitions of mental realities and the purpose they serve.
Bank of America, Ex-Execs Indicted on Civil Fraud Charges
Bank of America and two of its former executives have been indicted over allegations of lying to investors about bonus payouts and the 2008 acquisition of investment bank Merrill Lynch. On Thursday, federal and state regulators filed civil fraud charges against Bank of America, as well as former chief executive officer Ken Lewis and chief financial officer Joseph Price. The bank is also accused of misleading government officials by threatening to abandon the Merrill Lynch deal without billions of additional bailout money. The move marked the broadest legal action to date against a leading bank involved in the nation’s financial crisis. Bank of America has already settled some of the charges with a $150 million fine.
Obama Seeks $44B Increase for Pentagon; $5B for Nuclear Arsenal
President Obama is unveiling a record $3.8 trillion budget for 2011 today. The budget would boost war spending while trimming domestic expenditures. Obama is seeking a $44 billion increase in the military’s budget. If approved, this will bring the Pentagon’s budget to $708 billion. The Obama administration is also asking Congress to increase spending on the US nuclear arsenal by more than $5 billion over the next five years. Obama is seeking the extra money despite a pledge to cut the US arsenal and seek a nuclear weapons-free world. The Obama administration argues that the boost in spending is needed to ensure that US warheads remain secure and work as designed as the arsenal shrinks and ages.
Supreme Court: No Limit on Corporate Spending on Elections
The Supreme Court has ruled corporations have the right to spend as much money as they like to influence the outcome of US elections. In a five-to-four decision, the court overturned century-old restrictions on corporations, unions and other interest groups from using their vast treasuries to advocate for a specific candidate. The majority opinion affirms corporations have First Amendment rights and that the government can’t limit their political speech. The decision has sparked widespread outrage amongst progressives and calls to have it reversed. This is Robert Weissman of the watchdog group Public Citizen.
Robert Weissman: “What we really need is to get the decision undone. If the court won’t reverse its own decision, the only course available to us is a constitutional amendment. We have to say the First Amendment exists to protect the rights of real people, of you and me, not artificial creations known as corporations, not for Exxon, not for Pfizer, not for Goldman Sachs.”
In a statement, President Obama called the ruling “a major victory for big oil, Wall Street banks, health insurance companies and the other powerful interests that marshal their power every day in Washington to drown out the voices of everyday Americans.”
So this post is mostly a tribute to my mom. I mostly feel like i dont need to write anything because there has very little to write about. Whats strange is that even though i was in a very similar situation to the one im in now about four months ago, i dont feel like writing nearly the amount that i did then. Thus, i believe i have had a bit of a personality change.
To summarize my current life, i live in oak harbor, work at a small cafe and take a full courseload at skagit valley college. I hardly ever touch video games, and spend most of my freetime reading or hangin out with my good friends nick, jacob steven and dylan.
This lifestyle, i have come to terms with. I am maturing, and the evidence to myself is that i have relinquished many of the teenager anxieties that i used to have. I am more patient and more introverted in my social behavior which is exactly what i had expected. I care less about social interaction and more about responsible and ethical reasoning. But the biggest and most startling change from my teenage self to my adult self has yet to be addressed, and this is very important. I feel that the biggest change i have made, is that i know longer try to find the right answer to things, and that is probably why i have posted so little here on tumblr.
Trying to find the right answer to a question, i believe, leads you to becoming insane and nuerotic. This isnt necissarily a bad thing, i have certainly gotten through it, and it is really a learning process. I have learned that life is about balance, and weighing the pros and cons of both sides. I dont know really how to describe it other than percieving the world objectivly. By that i mean attaining a mindset which seeks no bias. This fundamental principle has made me more responsible, ethical, sensitive and patient; all well known functionings of a healthy mind.
This learning process that i have undergone and, still am undergoing, is all thanks to my mom. My mom who parented me by leading by example. She raised me not to value anything. She gave me no background with which to build upon. She left the world 100% open to my interpretation, fully trusting that i would develop into a good person. what faith she had, i still find it impossible to even imagine myself with such confidence!
When i was 7 years old i had just returned to my mother to escape my abusive father. I was, to say the least, an emotional train wreck. I was neurotic, impatient, depressed, rude and self centered. I fought my whole life up until this point, trying to be unhappy. I have always been resistant to the unconditional love my mom raised me with. It is only at this point have i realized the narcissism with which i have lived life.
My mom taught me nothing and thats the greatest gift i could have asked for. She taught me that the world is my oyster and her perseverence for good is the hereditary gift i can no longer neglect.
Thank you mom, because without you i could never have made it this far, and dreamed as big as i am now.
Your in Iraq, and im in Oak Harbor. Your teaching children on the other side of the world while i develope myself into the wiseman you always knew i am.
I have a responsibility to take full advantage of the love you have given me and now, at this moment and from this moment on, i intend to do so.
I miss you mom, but the mother has left the nest and so i am left with only one option, to try and fly.
“We want our money back, and we’re going to get it. And that’s why I am proposing a financial crisis responsibility fee to be imposed on major financial firms until the American people are fully compensated for the extraordinary assistance they provided to Wall Street. If these companies are in good enough shape to afford massive bonuses, they are surely in good enough shape to afford paying back every penny to taxpayers.”
“To neglect the field of political thought, because its unstable subject matter … is merely to allow oneself to remain at the mercy of primitive and uncriticized political beliefs.”—Isaiah Berlin - ”Two Concepts of Liberty” (via mitch-finch)
When it comes to Bill O’Reilly, what isn’t there to be sorry about? This raging talking head only gets his points across through screaming over people and cutting the mics of his opponents. Unprofessional and disrespectful towards his guests, O’Reilly is the consummate asshole.